My Story- The Beginning

I am the fifth child of six children. There were 10yrs between the youngest and the oldest.   My mother decided to go to nursing school after the sixth child was a couple of years old.  Can you imagine? She had gone through the tenth grade.  I have great respect for the tenacity of my mother.

She  worked double shifts after she graduated to help put food on the table. That meant  the older siblings watched the younger ones.  This was not always safe for the youngest ones, but I believe the angels watch over us.  There were some broken bones, and I swallowed (my sister told me they were M & M’s) some of my Mother’s pills and had to have my stomach pumped out.  Mom was home, and I can remember being walked around the house to stay awake till I could get to the hospital.  Barry, the baby, had a  tractor run over his leg and it was a compound fracture (my dad was driving it).  But most of the “accidents” were when adults were around.

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We are at my grandparent’s farm. There’s a couple of cousins in the picture, and I’ve put a name to identify each of us. Order of birth: Barry (?) mos, Debbie 2yrs, Beverly 4yrs, Mary Jo 6ys, Frank 8yrs, Sandra 10yrs.

I was raised as a Seventh Day Adventist. (My Father’s parents were this religion.) We lived in a small community that had a  Seventh Day Adventist college, high school and elementary school.  There was a small public school that  went from 1st to the 10th grade.  That’s the school that I went to  except for the one year I went to the “private” elementary school in the 5th grade.  It was the only year I went and then it was back to the public school for me.  After the 10th grade, I drove five miles to the high school with my sister, Beverly.

I went to the 7th Day Adventist church probably until I was about thirteen, when I refused to go anymore.  No one else was going by that time except my Dad.  Mamaw, my Mother’s Mom, and my Dad argued quite a lot about religion.  She was United Pentecostal.  There’s a big difference in these two religions.  However, both of them are what I call “a don’t do” religion.  I decided to have nothing to do with “religion” at a  young age due to so much of that negativity.

There was a family of five girls in that small town where lived,  that truly lived the way they believed.  Right or wrong it was what it was in their home.  I had great respect for Mr. and Mrs. Wetmore.  JoAnn and Sandy were my two best friends growing up.  We got into some silly mischief and when I went on to the 11th & 12th grade at the neighboring town, they went to the “private” school.  I lost touch with them.  But I will never forget their family “rituals”.  They were faithful.  I loved them, because they lived what they believed and were a very close-knit family.  We would sleep out in the back yard in a tent during the warm summer nights, and go to the Cleburne State Park for swimming.   Mrs Wetmore took us swimming at the city pool five miles away. I look back at those days with much love and affection.  Mr. Wetmore was a strict man and consistent in his rules for his children.  He had his hands full with five girls!  Two of those girls had a diagnosis of Cystic Fibrosis. One dying at a very young age.  My friend Sandy was married and had a healthy baby before she passed on. Her sister JoAnn raised her child.  It was a difficult disease to see her deal with, but looking back she did it with grace from above.  This was a Christian family I am proud to have known.

I escaped my home life a little bit by going to my friends’ house a lot.  That’s the point of the long previous paragraph.  I was not  very happy  back in those days. We were scattered as a family unit due to my father traveling in his different jobs and my mother working double shifts.  My parents did the best they could with what they knew.  In the later years before both of them passed on, I was able to tell them I loved them.  My father was hit by a car while riding a bike.  This was in the mid 1970’s and he was in his 50’s.  My mother passed on in her mid 70’s. They were divorced and had remarried. Both of them are in Heaven and at peace.  I love them and know  they did their best for all of us.

I am the person I am today and have some of the best work ethics, due to seeing my Mother work so very hard.  I’ve passed them on to my children. ( As my sisters and brothers did to theirs.)   We each saw our childhood in a different light according to our personalities.  I am telling my story here.  So I see it in the light of the way  I saw it.

Take away is this:  Even when you are raised in a legalistic religion, if you see love and consistency, the grace of God is shown in abundance.  I saw that more than once with my experiences in the Wetmore family.  Mr. Wetmore was Law, but Mrs. Wetmore was Love.

Blessings…

Debbie

“The presence of God takes up residence in a person enabling them to live above human standards.  That is grace.” Bill Johnson

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Choices

Getting out of your environment will show you what you really do have deposited in you.  Recently, we went to a church and were able to see that we have been blessed by the years we have been in our local body with the same pastor in TX/OK.  He really is an awesome teacher of the Word. We know more than we thought we did!!  🙂

We saw some people that were so hungry for the manifested presence of God in their lives.   He met them exactly where they were-just as He has always done.  We were sad about some of the “goofiness” that we saw.  The name of this blog is “It is not about you, it is about Jesus Christ and His Kingdom”.   What we saw were some people having a hard time getting out of the way and letting God do it.    It took a while, but the Holy Spirit did show up.  🙂

Well, I am still working on getting myself out of “His” way.  Each day it is a choice.  It may not be in a big way.  It is in serving.  Do I react to or act in love?  Choices.  We make them in a hundred different ways everyday.  I want to walk in the fruit of the spirit and grow in God’s character.  The trials that we may face each day can be a test.  Are we going to act or react?

I make good choices some days and not so good some days.  But I am learning and remembering on a daily basis….It is NOT about ME.  It is about the Kingdom of God here on earth.

Love you all.

Deb

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Love Covers

Love covers a multitude of sin.  This is what the Holy Spirit is bringing to my  mind a lot here lately. Jesus died for our sins. He knew what I was going to do, say and think before the foundation of the world. So if I am supposed to be like Him and walk in love and forgiveness, a lot of the ‘things’ that I let bother me.. I need to let-them-go!

They are the carnal-minded things (dealing with the 5 senses) that I have been looking at and reacting to.  Thank you, Lord for reminding me to be spiritually minded . That is what will produce life, rest and peace.  I am seated with Christ in heavenly places.  I can ‘rest’ in that.  It is from a place of rest that I can love on people and overcome the flesh.  I don’t have to fight “for victory” or defend anything.   I am not fighting to obtain, but rather to maintain.  From a position of victory, I reign.

I am not  condemned, because I am already forgiven. I  repent because I am a Christian.   I am so glad I am seated in heavenly places in Christ. Each day, I remind myself that I reign with Him. I choose to walk in His kind of thinking & to look at people with His kind of love, and the peace of God that passes all understanding reigns in my heart.  The fruit of the Holy Spirit resides in my born again spirit man.   I choose to rest in Him daily no matter what the natural circumstances are that I face.

1 Peter 4:8 NLT

Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sin.

This verse has been coming to my mind every time I am about to say something negative or judgmental about someone or a situation. (carnal minded)  Love covers…I am choosing to draw on the fruit of the spirit (spirit minded) that resides in me, I’m resting in Him and letting my character (soul area) become more like Jesus everyday. I am reigning with Christ & resting in Him.  I know I am repeating myself.   But it needs to be repeated. I am “renewing my mind”. LOL. This is learning to walk by faith and to stop putting confidence in the flesh on a daily basis. Sometimes I fall down, but I will always get back up and continue my walk of faith!   Amen & Amen!

God Bless!

Debbie

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New Beginnings….

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First lesson from my Father God during the trip to AR was to stop reacting to the ‘arm of the flesh’ or bad reports.  Just because someone says something doesn’t mean it is “truth”.

He told us to sell our house and move to Benton, AR.  So, why not rest in that?  My husband was for sure!  When that negative report (legal issues) came our way, he said, “Debbie, it is hallelujah time!”   Well, I can look back and say that it was a lesson learned how NOT to react, because dead people don’t react. (Thank you, Pastor Duane. “Training for Reigning”)

It’s a 5hr drive from Denison to Benton.  I was listening to Pastor Duane’s CD-Spirit, Soul and Body Series. There was something he said at the end of the first CD that really jumped out at me.  He referred to the scripture where Jesus wants to wash Peter’s feet, and Peter wanted him to wash his whole body.

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“8)Peter said to Him, You shall never wash my feet! Jesus answered him, Unless I wash you, you have no part with (in) Me [you have no share in companionship with Me]. 9) Simon Peter said to Him, Lord, [wash] not only my feet, but my hands and my head too! 10) Jesus said to him, Anyone who has bathed needs only to wash his feet, but is clean all over. And you [My disciples] are clean….”

This is what he said that makes me want to shout!  The ‘feet’ are the part that touch the world.  That’s when we have the opportunity to sin, because we are in this world.  We mess- up and ‘fess-up (another Duane-ism 🙂 ).  Our spirit man is seated in the heavenlies with Christ-it is pure & can not sin Christ couldn’t. We were buried, raised, and walking in new life with Him.  It is in the soul area that we mess up-the “feet”.  That is where we are being washed with the water of the Word.  I ‘reckon’ myself dead, dead, dead.   I have to remind myself not to ‘react’ when the enemy of my soul comes against me with lies.

John 1:1 Amp

1)IN THE beginning [before all time] was the Word (Christ), and the Word was with God, and the Word was God Himself.

We have Jesus in us.  And that’s what the devil wants to steal, kill and destroy.  So, again it is our witness in this world.  It is not about me.  It is about Jesus in me and His Kingdom on earth.  I will have the opportunity on a daily basis here in AR to act or react. Dead or Alive?  How about you?

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Our New Extended Washington Family

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My favorite picture of Diana as a child. We were in Ghana, West Africa.  She was 10 & Danyel 7 in this picture. Diana was always blonde growing up, and it took me a while to get use to the black hair. 😉

Danyel did a lot of the planning from Germany for Di’s Memorials.  She got on Face Book with people regarding the Memorial Ride for Di at her beloved Rock the Dock with her friends.  Barbie, Debi, Joe, Tim, Marie, Gwen, Misha, and several more were private messaged.   We were in a joint message.  The logistics were calculated and Joe, Tim and Marie did a run on their bikes for what would have been a much longer ride than what we actually ended up doing due to the weather.  I rode behind Joe, Danyel behind Tim and Sam behind Mike-no small task due to his size. 🙂 Thank you to everyone that gave rides to the kids and Di’s friends that shared stories with us.  I stand amazed at the hospitality and love shown to us.  Joe and Debi were instrumental in hunting down rides, jackets, helmets and gear to keep Sam and I from freezing.  Shari, Joe’s wife,  equipped me with the jacket and chaps I wore.  Sweet Marie fixed the do-rag to keep the hair out of my face.  Danyel wore her sisters. Thank you to all that helped us!

There was a patch made up by a man named Jerry, and he also made a mirror that is hanging on the wall at RTD.   A friend of ours here in TX made T-shirts for Danyel, Sam and I to wear from this logo.  Several family and friends have had them made in honor of Di’s memory.

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Jerry made the mirror and it hangs on the wall at Rock the Dock.

Debi had the patches made from the design. People gave a donation, and the monies were given to the family at the Memorial.

As we were getting the Obit ready for down here in TX, Joe told me of the rallies Di helped him and others with.  They ranged from animal abuse, veterans and children that had incurable diseases.  He said she was one that volunteered without hesitation. Diana had a big heart that showed in many ways.

One story I think of is about a lady she heard screaming outside of  the place they were.  Diana went out and got between her and the man beating her almost to death and told him to deal with someone who would fight back.  Diana took the lady home with her, and took care of her wounds.  She made her stay with her until he moved out of her home.  This lady says she would have been dead if it weren’t for Di.    Much love between them and she misses her very much.

There was another story of how some ladies saved Di in a previous attempted suicide.  The whole point is there was much love given and taken in our trip to Tacoma, WA.  When we got on the plane to go we were in shock and didn’t know what to expect.  The people we stayed with were awesome and so very understanding.  Merilee even came down for a little bit to RTD .  The grace and mercy God showed was far above we could ask or think.

Di and I agreed to disagree about things.  In the growing up years it wasn’t always pleasant. I was so very touched by what more than one person said to me about Di’s and my relationship.  She never said anything but good about me.  I was her Mom and she honored me. Period.  That’s what love and family is about.

Thought I’d end this chapter of the stories I’m writing with some pictures. Hope you enjoy them.  Sam, Danyel and I love our new family and pray for them that our Father God keep them in His Hand as they ride in the wind….rubber side down!  Blessings to each and everyone of you!

Debbie

“The presence of God takes up residence in a person enabling them to live above human standards.  That is grace.” Bill Johnson

Jamie did another wonderful collage. Top: Tim, me, Rikk & Di, Danyel, Sam, Christian and Courtney, Jamie, Rikki, Angel, and Tim's Mom-Debbie.

Jamie did another wonderful collage. Top: Tim, me, Rikk & Di, Danyel, Sam, Christian and Courtney, Jamie, Rikki, Angel, and Tim’s Mom-Debbie.

Gwen(right) is the owner of Rock the Dock. Marie is the first lady we met and a good friend of Di's.  I immediately boded with both.  Marie has a great sense of the ridiculous.

Marie (L) and Gwen (R). Gwen is the owner of Rock the Dock and a class act. Marie and Di were friends…Marie pointed out the dock that she listened hours to Di. They went on bike rallies and many fun times.

One of the many pictures taken. Joe, Toni, Tim, Trish, and, Gwen are all part of the family.

One of the many pictures taken. Joe, Toni, Tim, Trish, and, Gwen are all part of the family.

Joe’s bike on the inside w/me behind, and Tim’s bike on the outside with Danyel behind as we lead the riders. It was a nice ride.

We stopped at a favorite spot of Di’s and Joe said a prayer after people shared from their hearts about Di….

Sam behind Mike.

My favorite picture of Di. I believe she is in Heaven with her Dad, Memaw and Pepaw, my Mother and Dad..and all those that have gone before.. She is no longer in pain and at peace…that peace that passes all understanding. We, the survivors that are left behind miss her, but will one day see her again. Love you much, Sissy!

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Grandkids Are the Best!

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It had been twelve years since I had seen my grandchildren, Courtney-19 and Christian-15.  Mike and Kathy opened their hearts and home to us while we were in Washington. (Kathy is an awesome chef by the way..wow!)  We drove the 45+ minute drive from where we were staying gladly to spend time with them. These two wonderful young adults are a absolutely joy to be around.  We rode around in their town and laughed our heads off at their crazy Aunt Danyel.  We went to the Musem of Glass in Tacoma.  Courtney has received awards in Art and enjoyed all the glass art.  She and Christian are a mixture of Di, their dad and I saw a lot of Larry Cheeks in Christian, especially.  He caught me staring at him several times. 😉

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She’s going to ride the bike..and going to tell me to delete this awesome picture of her! We laughed till we cried. Courtney & Christian had Sam post as her profile picture on facebook. Short time!

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Di loved Betty Boop. Here she is with her best impersonation of her. This lady was loved by the largest variety of people I’ve every met. She lived life large!

We had many laughs while we were together in their hometown of Eatonville, WA.  We went up on Mt. Ranier where Di was the happiest.  She worked in the National Park while they were doing construction work at the Lodge.  That was the happiest 9mos of her life.  The kids got to go stay with her during the summer.

Though she looks very serious, this was taken up on Mt Ranier during the happiest times.

Though she looks very serious, this was taken up on Mt Ranier during the happiest times.

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The lodge where Di stayed for 9mos up on Mt Ranier.

Christian, Danyel, Toni and Courtney taken on the way up the mountain.

Christian, Danyel, Toni and Courtney taken on the way up the mountain.

Her friend from the school in England came and stayed with Mike, Kathy and the kids.  Toni was wonderful to get to know.  She was in shock and we all comforted each other.

Sam came along when Di was 17 and Danyel 14.  (God answered our prayers after waiting for 10yrs, but that’s another story!) He loved Di but she left home that year, and was in and out of his life.  She was so proud of the man he had become.  A full-time college student…working to get his BA in his field of choice in computer networking.  She and his dad are applauding him from heaven.

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Sam and Danyel on 4-7-13 preparing for the ride in honor of Di.

Diana & Danyel provided me with many stories of laughter throughout their childhood.  We laughed & we cried but most of all we loved each other no matter that our opinions were different.  We agreed to disagree and to love one another for who we were.

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A close friend of Di’s did the graphics for this photo. Thank you, Jamie. We met her while in Tacoma. She was called her “pocket friend” because she is very short and Di told her she could put her in her pocket. So many friends and such a variety of backgrounds, lifestyles and personalities. We hold them all very dear.

When it comes down to it, life is about memories we make.  Things are not important. You can’t take em’ with you. What is important is your loved ones and memories you make with them.  What is in your heart?  Is it pain & trouble free?  I started my very first post with how to have peace.  Di didn’t have it, and everyone we met in WA said if we only could have…I met her significant other and though their relationship was very troubled, it was not his fault she did this.  She made her choices.  We can not live others’ lives for them.  We can’t control them.  We counsel (I pray) we talk, we listen, but we can only do so much.  Please no guilt for woulda’, coulda’, shoulda’ thoughts…OR I would be guilty.  There is hope for the survivors.  The pain of being left behind after your loved one has committed suicide…I do not know how people do it without the grace and mercy of our Father God, though.

Next time some pics and thank you’s to people that did so much!

“The presence of God takes up residence in a person enabling them to live above human standards.  That is grace.” Bill Johnson

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Love Covers

Love covers a multitude of sin.  This is what the Holy Spirit is bringing to my  mind a lot here lately. Jesus died for our sins. He knew what I was going to do, say and think before the foundation of the world. So if I am supposed to be like Him and walk in love and forgiveness, a lot of the ‘things’ that I let bother me.. I need to let-them-go!

They are the carnal-minded things (dealing with the 5 senses) that I have been looking at and reacting to.  Thank you, Lord for reminding me to be spiritually minded . That is what will produce life, rest and peace.  I am seated with Christ in heavenly places.  I can ‘rest’ in that.  It is from a place of rest that I can love on people and overcome the flesh.  I don’t have to fight “for victory” or defend anything.   I am not fighting to obtain, but rather to maintain.  From a position of victory, I reign.

I am not  condemned, because I am already forgiven. I  repent because I am a Christian.   I am so glad I am seated in heavenly places in Christ. Each day, I remind myself that I reign with Him. I choose to walk in His kind of thinking & to look at people with His kind of love, and the peace of God that passes all understanding reigns in my heart.  The fruit of the Holy Spirit resides in my born again spirit man.   I choose to rest in Him daily no matter what the natural circumstances are that I face.

1 Peter 4:8 NLT

Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sin.

This verse has been coming to my mind every time I am about to say something negative or judgmental about someone or a situation. (carnal minded)  Love covers…I am choosing to draw on the fruit of the spirit (spirit minded) that resides in me, I’m resting in Him and letting my character (soul area) become more like Jesus everyday. I am reigning with Christ & resting in Him.  I know I am repeating myself.   But it needs to be repeated. I am “renewing my mind”. LOL. This is learning to walk by faith and to stop putting confidence in the flesh on a daily basis. Sometimes I fall down, but I will always get back up and continue my walk of faith!   Amen & Amen!

God Bless!

Debbie

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“When you blame others, you give up your power to change.” Rick Godwin

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“The Presence of God-II

When I received the call from my son that Diana had been shot and killed, I thought it was domestic violence. He said her 19yr old daughter was crying so hard he couldn’t understand her.   I called to get the facts from her ex-husband (who was her friend) and had spoken to her around midnight.  It was true and it was self-inflicted.

We were all in shock. We knew she was in pain and depressed, but didn’t know it was this bad.  Her friends told us later they had saved her a couple of times from taking her life.  The investigator stated he knew her from previous calls to the home.  Her sister, brother and I were not aware of the depth of pain she felt.  They call it “psyche” pain.  You can be depressed and not have psyche pain.  But people that commit suicide most times are in such pain they just want it to stop.

Danyel was in Germany and I was in Texas and making plans was not easy.  The first gift from God was the same vision He gave Danyel and I.  Diana loved riding her bike, Betty.  I had a vision of riding behind someone as we went to her beloved places.  I thought it was Mt Ranier, but it was too cold to go up on the Mountain on bikes.  We did ride in the car and go up to where she stayed for 9 months.  Danyel had the exact same vision in Germany.  We agreed we must go and started making plans.  We had a Texas memorial, a private one for her children to spread the ashes and the bike ride/memorial at her favorite ‘watering hole’  Rock the Dock.

One issue was resolved regarding the money and tickets to fly up. My sister traded in frequent flyer miles for all three of our tickets.  Sam, Danyel and I had round trip tickets thanks to her generosity.  Our first answer to prayer.  A place to stay was the next answer.  A son of long time friends opened up their home to us.

We had been talking about Di’s beliefs or the lack of them.  She had told many she didn’t believe in God.  I remembered her as a child, though.  She had accepted Christ into her heart and though I’m not necessarily of the belief “once saved always saved”….I’d been praying about this issue.  I had felt this being said to me in my heart.  “Don’t put me in a box of religion.  You don’t know what Diana and I discussed in her heart of hearts during her quiet times of being alone. You are a spirit, have a soul (mind, will and emotions) and live in a body.  Diana’s spirit was born again years ago. Her soul was tormented for years.  And her body was dying because of what happened in the garden…and she chose to end the torment/pain. Suicide is not the unpardonable sin.  Rest in ME. Know that I have Diana in the palm of my Hand.”  I ran this past my pastors and they had no theological issue with it.  Each one of us have to deal with things as they come.  Diana was in pain and couldn’t handle the pain anymore. Period.

The story of the boxcar is the next “God” incident.  We were leaving the place where the kids wanted to spread her ashes, and Sam said “Look!”  We all saw the train across the street and the boxcar had CHEEKS emblazoned on it.  And the amazing thing was the arrow on the letter  “C” pointing up.  Danyel, Sam and I jumped in the car and followed it down the road.  We were amazed at where it ended up!!

This is the Boxcar (picture taken 4-6-13) with Diana’s last name of Cheeks. Sam Cheeks, and Danyel’s maiden name. I married Larry Cheeks.  Note the arrow pointing up on the letter “C”… I believe a sign from above…:)

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Angels on their last Assignment! Di’s boxcar with the arrow pointing up!

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Rock the Dock – The line up for Diana’s Memorial Ride 4-7-13.  And there were many cars, too.

We followed the train and when it stopped, Danyel & Sam tracked the boxcar down. It was directly across the street from Rock the Dock.  The place Diana loved and we were having the Memorial in her honor the next day 4-7-13.

I am amazed at how our Father God loves us. I loved her with all my heart and I prayed for her daily. I believe we have angels assigned to us for protection.  We also have choices.  Diana made hers through out her life. She certainly kept her angels busy, but her will ultimately over rode even her angels…..

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The Presence of God

I started reading the Bible in 1975-secretly.   I tried to read all kinds of self-help books that would make me feel better about myself. At that time I was married to a Viet Nam Veteran.  We were drinking and smoking marijuana. He was physically abusive (he was in pain), and I ended up leaving him.  I moved several places and was alone a lot.  The Holy Spirit was guiding my footsteps way back then and drawing me to Christ.

I will never forget that night in my old apartment.  I read the book of John in the Living Bible. I was by myself and the Holy Spirit was doing His work in my heart.  I was so miserable & unhappy.  He spoke to my heart and showed me that Jesus loved me and he died JUST for ME.  It was very personal.  There was no condemnation any longer- at least then.  I felt the love of Jesus.  You have to understand, I had been married twice and was only 24yrs old.  I was a really big sinner in the eyes of the church world.  But that night I felt the love of Jesus.

I accepted His promptings to ask Him into my heart and put Him first in my life; got into a church body; was water baptized and filled with His Holy Spirit.  Most of this was done on a one on one basis…except the water baptism. 🙂  Everything was done within a month!  The church I went to taught grace, love and mercy.  I was forgiven of those divorces.  Old things had passed away and all was new!

I met my husband and his two children, Diana and Danyel, within 6 months of going to church.  We met on a blind date.  He was not the “type” of man I would have picked out! (But then looked at the mess I had made of my life!) Very different, but God told me I would marry him and I would be a mother to those two wonderful girls.  Diana was 6 and Danyel was 2 when we married. Danyel was full of joy and an easy/peasy  child. Diana was not.  She was loving but stubborn and determined to have her own way.  She was saved at 8yrs old, spirit filled and worked with the children and puppet ministry.  We went to Africa and the Philippines as missionaries.  Diana was 13 yrs old when she went to live with her mother.  After that, she was a different person regarding her Christian beliefs.  She came back the year I had Sam, and she was very difficult at 16 yrs old. She left to never live with us again that year.

She was divorced and had 3 children-one was raised by her mother.  She was  bi-polar and drinking quite a bit on a daily basis.  She was in an extremely unhappy relationship. Diana experimented with many things and was a practicing Wiccan, when she decided to put an end to her life.  Everyone that loved Diana was highly affected by her actions.  She was intoxicated and she was probably extremely tired and not feeling well physically. (They found three arteries clogged 75-80% in her heart.)

We had 3 memorial services for her. One in Texas for family here, one for her children, and one for the friends that she rode her bike with. It was the grace of God that carried her sister, brother and I through them.  I think it hit me when the box of ashes were handed to me to hold.   God showed me that she was in intense pain to have done this, and she’s no longer in pain.

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Diana and her beloved bike, Betty.

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Angels on Assignment. This boxcar showed up. Story next time.

Next time will tell about our trip to Tacoma, WA. And about this boxcar with Di’s last name on it. Note the arrow pointing Heavenward.

 To be continued… because God’s grace was so there for us during our visit to Tacoma.  The friends we met and the love we felt and showed was absolutely God.   I, personally,  could not have done it without His enabling power.   Bill Johnson says it much better…

“The presence of God takes up residence in a person enabling them to live above human standards.  That is grace.” Bill Johnson

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Keep it Simple

During my quiet time, I’ve felt impressed to write down what God’s done for/ told me in my walk with Him. (Rev 12:11)  Recently, He’s had me “focus” on Him; telling me it is not about “me” that it is about Him (Christ) in me our hope of glory.  The enemy of our soul comes against us to steal, kill and destroy­­­­­ all the works that Christ did by dying on the Cross to restore back to us what he took in the garden.   When we boil it down to that, it is very simple.

When I look back over the years, months and days, my Father God has done so very much on my behalf!  He’s interceded through Jesus and the Holy Spirit – my Comforter and one called alongside to show me what to do in time of trouble or need. He has poured out His love on me to show His love to others in their time of need.

I have come across situations when people reacted to my “word” from the Lord.   They didn’t receive what I said very well.  When you feel the Lord’s calling you to be a leader in His Kingdom, you are thinking:  Okay, that went great!  This is what the Holy Spirit is saying to me, “It is not about you, Hot Rod! (My Pastor’s vernacular for a teenager’s self-centeredness.)  It’s about them.  They are going through things in their life.  I gave you that Word, and your heart was in the right place.  If they were reactive or negative, you are not to take it personal.  It isn’t about YOU. “   We are not to be offended for the Word’s sake.

I am also being told to stop being “selfish & self-centered”.  As we move to AR, it is a huge thing in our lives to leave our beloved church, family and friends.  Again, the Holy Spirit is saying to me, “It’s not about you, Hot Rod! It is about the Kingdom of God.”  The body of Christ is all over the world, and more importantly the unsaved ones are all over, too!  It isn’t just in the town where I am living.  We are to be a testimony wherever we go.  The gifts and callings are without repentance.  He has a plan and purpose for my life, and I will walk in that plan wherever I go.  JT and I are excited that we are obeying Him and He will show us the plan like he did Abraham & Sarah. (This is our “Abrahamic time”)

I am going to stop with that.  Next time: I hope I was a witness when I went to my daughter’s memorial service in Tacoma, WA.  She was only 41 yrs old when she decided to end her life on March 21st of this year.

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